Trust and acceptance
Many of us have grown up with self doubt, the idea that in some way we
are not quite up to scratch.  We want to be happy and content and spend
our life looking for the perfect partner, the best job, the ideal holiday.  
We consume goods, entertainment and distraction, yet we remain
restless.  In sitting still, we are faced with our mental and physical habits
of self distraction, our mind which is constantly thinking of this and that
and our body which often feels fidgety and restless and finds it hard to be
still. Rather than running away or merely giving in to the distractions,
meditation asks us to remain at least physically still for a while and just
accept what is going on inside us and around us.  Rather than paying
attention and identifying with the constant mental running commentary
that is going on in our head, notice the fact that the commentary is going
on, 'notice' any uncomfortableness in our body and just accept things the
way we are.  Give yourself the opportunity to choose to accept yourself
with all your imperfections.  This means just being willing to face the fact
that you have imperfections, you can be dissatisfied, frustrated and
impatient.  Everything in your house may not be in order, you may want to
improve and change things quite considerably.  But rather than trying to
just problem solve and analyse your situation, first take time to get to
know the layout of our house, to recognise what you like and what you
don't like and don't get involved straight away in trying to sort it out.  You
may be reminded in meditation of things you have to do which is fine.  But
rather than reacting simply take note of them, remain focused and be
aware of your thought process.  Accepting yourself and trusting in the
process of listening and observing your mind and body starts a process of
creating a sense of space - mentally, emotionally and physically.  That
space is nothing new or different from what has always been there.  But
becoming aware of that space is often a new experience. It's as though we
didn't realise it was there until someone pointed it out.  It's like the fish
swimming in the pond and not noticing that it is immersed in water.  Until
we begin to learn the perspective of witnessing our internal process, we
are usually lost in our mental chitter chatter and in a constant state of
flux and reaction.  Meditating is not about stopping all the flux and
reaction.  Noticing the river does not stop the river flowing.  But we can
begin to develop a profound sense of trust and acceptance by sitting still.  
We can notice our fear, our anxiety, our love, lust or anger and not just
be swept along by it.  We can learn to notice it, feel it and have some
choice about how we react and respond.  We can begin to enjoy whatever
we are noticing since we have a sense of space within which to deal with
it.  We may still stop our practise and binge on chocolate or TV.  Our old
habits don’t suddenly die out when we start meditating.  Instead this is
about cultivating a new habit, a habit which like yoga, gym or other
exercise requires us to exert ourself (sometimes when we don’t feel like
it), but that gives us a sense of satisfaction and contentment that does not
come generally come from seeking out sensory pleasures.    Developing
our 'witness' self will allow us to notice our habits, notice the effect they
have on us and those around us, and begin to make choices which work
better for us and other people.  As  Chogyam Trungpa said, we can begin
to get in touch with and cultivate our 'basic goodness'.
C Webster 2016